nov 21 2022

it's thanksgiving break!! i'm not technically "on break" until wednesday, but all of my profs are super chill and are either having no or online class, so i drove home yesterday. i don't live that far from my university (online like an hour and twenty minutes, if there's traffic), but i get really anxious while driving for more than thirtyish minutes so i always prepare like i'm going off to war, lol. but as always it was completely fine and i've been having a good time at home so far. lots of chilling, working intermittently on final essays, and reading.

speaking of reading, i finally finished house of leaves! i started it last december around my sister's graduation, got like 20 pages in, and then just forgot about it for a long time. but i started reading it again on last night and got so hooked! i basically consumed it lol and i loved it so much. it's one of those pieces of media that is just so satisfying to me, so complete, that i don't even have anything to say about it (i felt this way about disco elysium, too). we've been talking recently in my lit and games class about ergodic literature which house of leaves is such a good example of. its kind of a confusing concept but erdogic literature is bascially literally that requires "nontrivial effort" to read. so you're not just flipping pages, you're making active choices about what to read and how to read it (like choosing to read the footnotes in house of leaves). it's a super interesting concept and it's like the world aligned so perfectly. it's an interesting experience because i'm so satisfied and pleased with how the book ended but i'm definitely still chewing on it and trying to understand it.

omg i keep writing stuff and deleting it bc it's just actual nonsense. i'm gonna go to sleep now :P