nov 10 2022

wow, it's been a while since i wrote one of these. a lot has happened. my granddad died, for one. he was really old (96!!) so i knew he wouldn't be around for much longer and i had kind of already come to terms with it. he was a really healthy man in his old age, but by the time i really got old enough to connect with him on any kind of personal level it was really already too late; he could barely hear or see and it was hard to have a conversation with him. i was more upset on my mom's behalf than i was for myself. it was a weird experience bc at first the news didn't really hit me and i didn't cry at all (which made me feel weird and heartless). and then my mom sent me the obituary she wrote for him and it just dredged up all these memories that i didn't even really realize i had. and now im tearing up again lol. idk, like i said i wasn't really close to him but when i have such fond memories of going to visit him and helping him with his garden as a kid, and eating the okra and other veggies he would send us from his garden. and his christmas fudge! it's weird, but thinking about how i'm never going to have his christmas fudge again is what makes me cry like a little baby. well, goodbye, granddad. you had a really good, full life. you were literally older than sliced bread!!! i hope i got your genes.

whew, anyways i also registered for my spring semester. i'm kind of just taking whatever at this point because i can't apply to the undergrad/master's program i want to do until the spring and then i won't start taking graduate classes until next semester. so i'm just chilling lol. i've kind of just been chilling this semester too? i've been doing a lot of writing for class which has been fun.

CROW'S MEDIA CORNER:
still trudging my way through wuthering heights (i like it, i just struggle to find time to sit down and focus on it). i started reading queen of the damned (anne rice) solely for the devil's minion chapter and it was great lol. very "fanfic of her own work" vibes which makes her fanfic lawsuit drama that much funnier. speaking of anne rice, the iwtv show aired the finale last week and my god what an amazing show. quickly became one of my all time faves. it's just so freaking good and layered and nuanced UGH i love it i need season 2 asap!! i watched velvet goldmine with some friends and it blew my MIND... truly an exploration of growing up queer and identifying with bands performing queerness onstage and then getting your heart broken when they gradually throw that persona away for a more conservative heterosexual life. and just a gorgeous movie too lol. what else what else... i read all systems red (murderbot book 1) and i liked it! usually not a huge scifi person but it was a short story which i think helped? and also it was just well written haha. music wise, these past couple weeks my brain has decided to become obsessed with izone and blur at the same time which is just... i don't think i could've picked two more different bands if i tried lol.

well, i think that's about all i have to say??? so this is crow signing off :3